little fears

this blog is a totally new thing for me. but also, it seems kind of like it's a totally new thing for the world. one quick search on bloglovin' tells me that there's not much out there for blogs on sex and relationships - and a google search brings up much more interesting content...

it's scary. it's honestly straight up terrifying to be doing something that is totally new and totally unheard of. taking beauty and makeup and clothing and life and combining that with sex is straight up terrifying to me. 

even though this is what I want to do with my life, putting contentious content out there is really overwhelming.

and yet I'm convinced that if I push through that little fear, I will find myself in a happy, exciting place that is exactly where I want to be. 

the entire purpose of blogging is to express yourself. and yet, expressing yourself is such a scary and vulnerable thing to do.

the deep conflict between striving for perfection mixed with the desire to be honest and real is really tough.

but I will persevere. I will make my dreams come true on this blog. I will not give up.

I will talk about lipstick, I will talk about blow jobs, I will talk about dating, I will talk about shopping. I will be myself and I will push through the little fears.